Indulgence

Now, that I do not have to worry about having cancer anymore, I am free to indulge in the little, unnecessary things in life. I feel so blessed to be able to do that again and I think that people, who have no real worries in their life, 1)don't even know how insignificant some things are and 2)don't even know how lucky they are to be able to pursue them simply for a passion / a pass time activity / fun, regardless of their insignificance.
My life was centered on such vital thoughts for the longest time, it is a blessing now to pretty much waste time on something as little and insignificant as weight loss. I have put on quite a bit of weight ever since I have been on the low iodine diet (the trip to Germany didn't make things better in that aspect, either), and now I am trying to change that. Low fat regime it is again. As always, at first rather strict, once I'll have reached a certain goal I can go easier on myself. So far it is pretty fun still and the husband is willing to go along which makes late night walkathons a lot more likely to happen. Last night we walked for an hour, as always actually doing it was not a kicker for me, but the feeling of accomplishment afterwards was.
My little workouts feel a lot better now than they used to, though. I think it has to do with the fact, that I couldn't do anything physical for months due to the neck surgery and now I feel as good as new. My neck is still numb in an area about as big as my palm and I still feel some constriction from the scar tissue and yadda yadda yadda but other than that I feel good. I am a little worried that my hormone pills contribute to the weight gain so therefore I am all the more motivated to do as much as humanly possible to reverse the weight gain.
I have a lot of stuff going on right now, most of which I don't want to talk about here. I do still feel homesick and I hope very much, that it will get better soon. I miss my family and friends, going for walks anywhere, feeling so safe, the food, public swimming pools, the weather...I miss a lot about home. I just feel like an uprooted plant here. Especially having no friends really sucks. I really want to make new friends and I hope once I return to work I'll be able to make friends.
I still haven't uploaded any pictures but will do so at some point. HAHA! Isn't that what I always say...
Love, Julia